Punishment for NO reason

When I was young, around the age of 15 or 16, marriage was a prevalent reverie for me. Wearing that stunning red dress, full 7 days revelry, full hand Mehandi and MOST significant of all: that red glamorous looking Chura. I always asked my dad that I wanted to get marry and what all my expectations from my kind of perfect husband. He actually takes me very critically.

I mean he used sit beside me and listen all the messy stories that I have for my marriage and for my future family or would I say in the regard of my husband.

I was tiny.

I didn’t know, I suppose, the meaning of real marriage.

But now as I am 25 now, get to know little idea of what actually this intuition tells about.

It is bit intricate.

I mean it is ACTUALLY.

It is not just about dresses or holidays or Mehandi.

These things are just baits to get hold you in a trap called marriage.

Off...

All my friends on my face book are getting engaged. Wearing that fake smile or full jewelleries things or updating the status like “finally got love of my life” something with a guy.

I too get a fear that one day I will have to leave my family forever.

Yes...

That is a key word: FOREVER...

I mean yes, I a surely not going to marry a distant place and we all have internet connectivity to have web chat or something or yes we all have cars that easily make me visit my HOME (that used to be) easily, on every single day.

BUT

Yes it will surely make a difference.

Marriage is NOT about dresses and holidays.

It is actually a punishment for “life time” without doing any offence that forces a girl to live with another family and forget your own home.

I didn’t able to have stupid fights with my brother each day for NO reason; I couldn’t have a chance to share my innocent stories with my dad. Nor I can sit beside my mum every day having lappy on one side and coffee on other hand and having lovely and spicy gossip chit chat, or welcoming my dad on each evening with that “ kho kho” voice.

There are numerous moments that I need to skip for this intuition:

I mean such a big sacrifice.

I know, I will not the only one for sure.

Every girl has to do this. My mother has leaved her for my father and my daughter will surely do the same.

BUT...

My notion is not that it is wrong. BUT it is very DIFFICULT.

And...

That difficult situation becomes pathetic when you get to marry a totally unknown person.

I mean REALLY??

On the one hand, you are leaving your parents and on the other hand you are supposed to live with a stranger. This punishment is called: arrange marriage.

Well. This is NOT the thing that I will ever opt.

I will prefer to die with known source rather than blind folded.

I wanted to have a love marriage, with the one I actually known for years.

I am not breaking the protocol. I mean there are girls who are doing love marriages. I am not confiding on trend setting thing for sure but yes.. I am keeping myself safe.

Well...

My purpose is NOT to give my debate on love marriage over arrange, but for many of the girls just as a girl like me, sharing my thought to getting this indispensable punishment that we can never escape.